On a regular basis I experience periods when I just don’t know anymore. What is the next step, and what decisions do I need to make? I spend sleepless nights when I weigh all possibilities and brood about “when this, then that” etcetera. An unending stream of thoughts flow past without any solutions appearing.
But I know this is part of the process and that at some moment the coin will drop. That can happen after some random remark, a book or a moment of quiet. Often the next step turns out to be quite simple, subconsciously I already knew it. The art is in being alert during such periods and to let the struggle work its course. Apparently the energy of the struggle is required to arrive at the real knowledge.